Depressed?

I felt so boring throughout the weekend and feeling depress...Actually, I am really afraid of depressing and they said that once you consume the medicine, you will forever fell into the depth of depression. So, I don't want to fall into it...quite scary...and now I know how it feels like to be in the depression mode. It's not easy no handle anyway....and I have learned the feeling and I pretty feel sorry for one of my friends...It is been a year or maybe two that I didn't hear any news from her...She was once diagnose with depression disorder. I really feel guilty now because I wasn't there for her when she needs me the most (I am crying now...So sorry). I am so sorry dear friend. Hoping that you are well and most in the good condition where ever you are.

This is just for your information and I think I did have all of them except the one with alcohol...Sigh~

Are you depressed?

If you identify with several of the following signs and symptoms, and they just won’t go away, you may be suffering from clinical depression.

• you can’t sleep or you sleep too much
• you can’t concentrate or find that previously easy tasks are now difficult
• you feel hopeless and helpless
• you can’t control your negative thoughts, no matter how much you try
• you have lost your appetite or you can’t stop eating
• you are much more irritable, short-tempered, or aggressive than usual
• you’re consuming more alcohol than normal or engaging in other reckless behavior
• you have thoughts that life is not worth living (Seek help immediately if this is the case)

Old Man in Sorrow (On the Threshold of Eternity)
painting 130 of 421 by Vincent van Gogh
Taken From: ARTILIM

I don't want to be in his shoes~

My Round Tummy

OK....OK now...I know you saw it but please don't be panic~

Well to begin with I almost did it everyday. Sit up for more than 20 reps. I just can't believe it didn't work and the fellow tummy down there is getting bigger and harden it seems. I really wish it will turn out with rock of the "six pack'. Maybe it my sweetest dreams perhaps.

           Let us see what might gone wrong...today, I had a pretty good break first. It was nasi lemak with sambal sardine and some quail eggs (there is a lot of cholesterol there!OMG!). as for lunch I only ate that sweet Air Batu Campur or known as the ABC (this might not hurt I guess). But seriously it has been a few weeks that I have eaten my break first at Mamak Stall for their sweet and savory Roti Boom...haha...that why you have grown my little fellow tummy~

The last time my BF said, "Daling you have to cut from eating to much food with oil in it.."

But how can I forget the tenderness in the inside and the crispiness of the crust of the roti boom....hukhuk~

And Who can resist this yummy thing?

Dreams

I'm becoming the old me with the wild imaginations. It is been a while or to be exact a few years...The imaginary left me right after high school. I missed it because there is no more good dreams... In fact there is no more dreams... I did not dream much as I did now. I'm glad that i found that make the dreams came back to me.

Feverish~

My body ache so badly right now....it like the mussel has been torn out into pieces. But I'm here at the lab working like a guinea pig. Hoping that I will survive throughout the day without fainting or what so ever..Feel tired almost in every inch through my bone...Dear frens, pray for my good health because there is so much work to be done now....Amin

The Big Bad Wolf

Its an awesome event and seriously I don't want to miss a chance if there's another events like this...The books were all interesting and yet very cheap...anyone can afford it...If you asked me how much I bought for myself....9 piece of books...that a record for me because honestly I didn't like to read much...but, sometimes you have to read to enhance your imagination...to sharpen it as well.

Birthday Cake...Missing!

Funny story for this month of October peps... A friend of mine was baking a nice chocolate cake for one of our colleague who is having her 22nd birthday but she is on leave for 2 days because of the high fever (poor girl)... So, my friend here put in the chocolate cake in the fridge before the poor girl came to work...and one fine morning :

                    Colleague : 
                    Open up the fridge  and took out the cake box...
                    "Eh, apesal cam ringan je bekas kek ni? 

                           (Translation : Eh, why is the cake box was so light?)"

                    Then she open up the box and with shocking voice...
                    "Siape pulak yang makan kek ni?" 

                    (Translation: Who the hell ate this cake??!!)

                    Birthday Girl : 
                    Thank goodness she doesn't end up crying....

Are you interested to know how much left of the cake? Even the Angry Bird will be angrier for these matters..

Poor Birthday Girl.....not only she feeling unwell and plus the chocolate cake too was eaten by somebody else which is UNKNOWN...hahaha...and this is not the first time since my food also has been missing in action too last year. 

PS: Kak Ana nanti boleh buat lagi okey sebab memang sangat sedap lah~

The lesson is - Do not ate without permission, maybe someone will be sad because of your action...

Nasi Lemak and Iced Coffee

To be honest...its kinda sucks to be in these shoes...and I'm gradually learned to hate everyone around me...feeling insecure is greater than before...OK OK OK...I'm feeling stressed now....

Source: Google

          Lunch time is a perfect getaway for me at this moment. I really like to drive and driving will leave things behind....so, I went for nasi lemak and a glass of iced coffee at the RNR Nilai. It was fabulous and only cost me RM3.00 for that incredible taste. Thank you Allah for giving me this great pleasure of yours...Now it is time to think really hard what do I really want within this short period...and here it goes:

• CheryPolka needs to be official soon

• More thing to bake and more experimental with baking also

• Put on a nice shoes and travel

• Try to get myself in a happy place

• Have a travel calender for myself

• Don't ever forget a camera...just in case

• And lastly is a NO NO NO NO NO NO NO to travel along with families

Yeah...you may think I'm crazy but seriously, "Ade mak kesah?"... So, message to myself : Think about yourself and only from the 10th place is provided others. Anything falls in between is all about me...It's sound so selfish, but do you care? No need to be in these shoes because you have your own shoes to fit in...until we meet again soon~